12th February 2012.

The midwife came today when Mummy was sat drinking tea, Nanna was playing with me, Daddy was cooking breakfast and the house was messy and full of people. Mummy said this was good because it showed she was taking the midwife's advice to relax seriously and they couldn't make us go to hospital now.

However when they weighed me I had lost too much weight, Mummy had started expressing last night when I wouldn't feed and had given me her milk in a bottle but the midwife was very strict and said we'd have to go to hospital if Mummy didn't give me formula milk. Mummy told the midwife she was going to do no such thing and would continue squirting her milk out for me so the midwife said she'd be phoning that night and telling the midwife who comes on Monday to pay special attention to me as I was far too thin.

Nanna told Mummy not to worry and that I'd be OK and at 1st Mummy was saying she knew that I'd be fine as I had finally started weeing my nappies since Nanna had showed Mummy how to feed me (I'd only wee'd once in 2 days at the hospital but they said there was nothing to worry about.)

Once Nanna and the rest of my family left though Mummy started to feel very sad and scared and made Daddy drive us to the city for some special sugary cows milk. We got back from my 1st trip to the supermarket at gone 11 o'clock at night and Daddy made and fed me my bottle. Mummy said she had to do some washing but really she was in the kitchen crying and crying, she said it was very sad that she was a bad mummy and couldn't do the one job she was made to do.

Even though I had a full tummy I still decided to stay awake from 1am til 5am, that is my favourite time of day!