17th February 2012.


Last night I went to bed at about half 1 and woke at about 4am and Daddy was in charge of feeding me and doing my nappy and Mummy was supposed to express milk for me but she kept falling asleep on the job! She had tidied the house and put some washing out after Daddy and I went to bed though then pumped even more milk while reading breast pump reviews on line.

Last night I only had Mummy's milk but in the morning I had one formula feed but Mummy wasn't too sad as she said we are getting there. Also I don't like formula as much as Mummy's milk which makes her feel very happy, however I am now refusing point blank to suckle, what is the point? I nuzzle Mummy's boobies but when I try and suck I remember what hard work they are compared to the bottle and give up straight away. Mummy is still putting me on her boobs every feed anyway, we're at a bit of a stalemate Mummy says she won't give up but I'm not so sure!

When the midwife came she was very happy that I have put on more weight and look healthy, Daddy says he can see how I am filling out now. We are going to have a whole weekend as a family with no midwife visits til Monday or possibly even Tuesday now as I am doing so well. The midwife said she was cross with Mummy for getting pre-eclampsia as she was now on call for 9 days solid because she was meant to be at my birth which Mummy had argued and argued for it to be at home, she was only joking though and said she'd be having a drink of wine to celebrate me being healthy and here.

Unfortunately Mummy has some muscle damage to her stomach and her uterus isn't doing exactly what it should so she can't be signed off from the midwife just yet but the bleeding has finally started to reduce and the pain isn't nearly as bad as it was. It is very unlikely we'll be sent back to hospital now.

The midwife has booked Mummy and me into a special class next week at the hospital where they will try and get me to feed directly from Mummy, however she says she can't cope with the pump she has at the moment for that long and has bought a very expensive one from Ebay, this is a top of the range double pump which retails for £299 - Mummy got it for £114.50 so she is very happy and has been told it is coming on Monday. She keeps saying "Only 3 more days to go!" She is also drinking fennel tea which the bossy midwife told her to get and sweetheart stout which the Evil-Midwife (who is really lovely) told her to get - both are disgusting but apparently I am worth it and she will be spouting like a shower head if she has a cup of each every night. If she really does let down that fast I might consider taking the boob after all.

Daddy is doing all the housework and cooking after being out shopping and going to the gym in the city all day - all Mummy has done is write my diary and look at me and play with me ... oh and pump milk out which I guzzle as fast as she pumps.